the final months
the more real i try to be with my gf
and the less i care
the more of a fuck she gives about me
got the bitch wrapped around my finger
i've never been more honest in my life
"actually i fucked some other girl while i was outta town and i did a lot of drugs. in fact, i'm a fucking drug addict."
her reply, "i just want you"
LMFAO the more i tell her to stay away the more often i'm in her bed ya feel me
the more i criticize her the more she's hitting me up
the more i ignore her and distance from her the more she begs for me to open up and talk to her.
"just talk to me baby..."
"you're so distant..."
"what's going on..."
yup. so easy.
I could be wrong on this one, but most of the lesbians I've come across are pretty smart but there is something mentally wrong with them. I don't know if it's the past trauma but not all of them. Most of the lesbians I talk too are nice people though. Judging blanc I know she's really smart though that's why she's always depressed and lonely.
we might have some things in common but not much i suppose. for example, im not 24/7 depressed it comes and goes. like 4 hrs ago i was depressed as shit, now i feel energic again
it's like phases of mental maintenance, a needed action to function somewhat normal. like an introvert's need for solitude to be able to work temporarily in a group of people, a serial killer's desire to kill -- it comes and goes. anger outbursts, getting quickly irritated, a cold nature, recklesness and some other negative shit become my key traits
im still looking for a way to battle that, it's been fucking my life up
all i can tell you is moodiness and irritability is common with depression, and its normal to have good moments and bad. but mood swings could also be a symptom of any number of other causes.
regardless, there are ways to get better stability but, it's best you just work with a professional on that to be certain you're taking the right approach.
the similarities are in the ratios and facial proportions of specific features.
pupil to nostril distance, the shape of her brows and the crescent curvature on the insides of her eyes. they match and are equidistant.
very similar nose and lip size and shape, marylins are just a tad bit more natural since, no lip injections.
the chin is similar size too, and the face shape is exact.
i've been listening to chopin
and creating weird shit on the internet
i guess you can call it digging for inspiration
chopin majorly inspires me and if i could marry a song...
it's just perfection..
and... i like fashion shit it's fun
online shopping is way better than irl. pretty much neva go to stores anymore cuz WHATS THE POINT
FASHION IS ART AGHHHH
WELL my dad has decided to get plastered on a sunday morning
in front of the entire family
no one says anything about it, while we sit there and eat our sunday breakfast and talk about the book of Genesis.
i told my dad not to drink anymore than he already had because he just gets obnoxious, and just makes it uncomfortable for everyone... everyone starts fighting...
and he just got really pissed at me.
i tried to explain myself, "it just doesn't make any sense to get fucking plastered on a sunday morning. it's just weird."
and my moms like making excuses for him and my dads like "i'll fuckin drink when i wanna drink its my damn house" lmfao
and my sister is just sitting there shoveling food into her mouth...
now he's currently sitting on a table, with his legs propped up on a stool like one foott from the TV... so close his fuckikn eyes must be burning, and yelling at my mom in the other room
they're arguing about money. like they do every weekend, when everyone's together.
i just wanna be like
"ya'll realize yet all you've done is argue about money for the last 20 years? when's it gonna stop??" lmfao
but at this point it must just be a habit
i'm probably just gonna leave lol...
killing my vibe